Six Pack Heart

I'm trying to open up, take chances, forget and forgive, purge myself of victimitus.

Not too sure it's a good thing. I'm not good at standing ground--it's easy to send rover right over and break through my boundaries.

I've opened up to the Divine Ms. M. after a year of recovery from her year of trying and damn near succeeding in destroying everyone around her to avoid her own issues.

She's worked tirelessly for the past year to get one of the new teachers, who has proved to be more than a little bitter and unqualified to teach, fired. While this woman is not a good teacher, I was rooting for her rehabilitation as apposed to her dismissal. She is unmarried and has two children. Ms. M was finally granted her wish and the teacher was fired.

I'm sorry for the teacher and her family. Sorry she wasn't able to make the changes necessary to succeed.

Ms. M . sent out an e-mail to half of the staff inviting them to a "ding dong the witch is dead" party to celebrate .

I will not be attending, nor will I respond to any e-mails making reference to the unfortunate situation.

On Dating. I open up too easily, I allow for too much bad behavior and I am too accepting of unhealthy lifestyles.

There but for the grace of God, is not to be interpreted in quite this way.

There is something about me that attracts men interested in sex and only sex.

I don't see myself as sexy, I have decent legs and a flat stomach.

I am not a pretty girl, I clean up ok, but I'm not pretty.

When My husband left me, one of the last things he said to me was that I was sexy and that I would be able to use that.

I didn't know what he meant. But I use it,

I think men are attracted to my vulnerability, my honesty and openness, the idea that they can be Sir Lancelot and sweep me easily off my feet. But, alas, once the conquest, I'm just a girl and damn if that fire breathing dragon chasing her isn't a mean looking mother fucker... Run Away!

I need an exercise to harden my heart as hard as I've been able to do for my abs.