All of the ideas of what should, should not, could, and could not, might, and might not build walls of fog with the heat of what is.

To be happy, one must

must not 

should be

should not

could do 

does not...

The days rise and fall, 

my eyesight is clear then blurry

my head hurts

the dog farts and coughs

the cat has taken to pissing on towels 

The sink is full pots and pans

soaking, or so I tell myself to put off washing and putting away.

I'll clean the room tonight,

after,

work, and the party I don't want to go to but I will and I will drink two glasses of wine and come home 

tired and waiting for him to let himself in the back door, to crawl into bed 

and I will sigh 

and he will moan

and we will move

together and apart 

rough and hard againt soft and easy

and time

will let loose

and the questions

the hopes

the fears

the needs

evaporate 

until morning.