Mundane daily tasks quell melodrama. Laundry gives me the opportunity to reflect on how generic my issues are in the scope of things. One of my bookshop workmates goes in for a lumpectomy February ninth. Hate and blind faith continue to kill and maim in the name of self righteousness.
We are all are living, dying, loving, hating, helping, harming, laughing and crying; all of us in our own little dust speck of ourselves, and each in our own way, we want to be significant, to be observed.
"We're here,
We're here,
We're here."
Nevertheless, I'm still struggling to accept the uncertainties that are certain to remain; warranted fears of harm and loss of property.
The property is important, I've children to raise. I've worked hard to maintain modest stability for myself and my boys. It is right to protect this hard earned shelter. I'm tired of doing it alone. I can, but I'm tired.
I"m physically beat and my heart aches from the effort to maintain its stone fences. I do not know what is honest, what is true, what I can trust, of what to let go, of what to hold tight. What is real, what is a projection of what I want, what is it that I want, what is it that I project, how do I let go and land on my feet?
The one certainty is that you do this alone.
Is it true that you can stand on your own with someone else standing alone next to you?
Can you lean toward the center and balance?
Can you take without giving too much and give without taking too much?
What is real, what is imagined?
What is right, what is wrong?
9 comments:
rest, rejuvenate, balance, strive.
lay down.... lay down
And when you find the answers to your questions, could you be so kind as to send me a clue or two?
Much obliged.
Standing alone together is pretty helpful. Beats standing alone alone sometimes anyhow.
Yep, take that rest whenever you can because it sounds like a rare commodity for you.
Nope, I'm not at all surprised you're in constant quandry trying to discern This from That. Seems about right. Hey, at least you're questioning, y'know? That's the healthiest.
What's right, for you, includes what you stated about that hard-earned shelther -- see how clear and strong you are on that point? There ya go. Some ground, real ground, that you're standing on, and you know where that ground is. Not totally lost, nope. You know... some things.
When someone is next to you at least you can lean on them and if you need to rest they will wait till you are ready to stand again...
ultimately we are all alone on our journeys, but others make it less lonesome.
Rest, in time it will all work out, Katie
its hard to stand alone and be strong for everyone each day...Stone fences fall down and are hard to maintain....all you can do is believe you are real and that what you love is right....I think this winter thing is a tough one to bare....me too...
Thank you for being the first follower of my blog. There is comfort in knowing that people can relate to or understand our struggles. I look forward to reading yours. Cheers to you for giving props to The Strugglers; personal friends of mine that I grew up with, some of the best songwriting around these days.
I look forward to reading more. Thank you for listening to The Strugglers; good friends of mine that I grew up with... writing/making some of the best music available.
I bought some art from an artist who has become a friend. Worked into it is this quote:
"Life has taught us that love does not consist of gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction."
(Alone, but together. That's what I'm after.)
Post a Comment